Confused

Not too far away from the present day, I was feeling very depressed on why that it seemed that I am selling myself to the wrong target, i.e potential boyfriend marketplace. Most of the people who seemed to be interested in me fell into the same category: sweet-faced, i-am-all-yours, cuddly, clingy, and obviously bottom. Maybe they were destined to be the people that I may need in my hectic life, dunno. But what I want is a completely different set of type: big, burly, masculine, and someone who can fuck like a real man. Then an ad exec friend of mine suggested a totally new campaign to market myself toward the right pool of audience. Afterward, surprising things came into place when we were discussing our preliminary research into the problem.

A couple of days ago I was reading an article on Ed Droste, the lead vocal of an upcoming Brooklyn band called Grizzly Bear, before I stumbled upon the frank nature of the interview conducted by Adam Baran:

What kind of porn do you like?
I’m not really educated on porn, but if anyone wants to send me gay porn – I really enjoy a lot of the vintage stuffs. There’s this one called American Boy, it’s the only one I’ve ever bought. I know a lot of people who give me their passwords to pay-sites mostly. But I was like, I need to own American Boy.

What’s so amazing about it?
Everyone had shaggy hair and was really cute and it was pre-condom, really hot. I like the pre-condom porn. Not that I promote unsafe sex, but…

Well, you are in a monogamous relationship so…
So we’re able to do it.

You are able to have pre-condom sex!
Yeah! No-condom sex.

That’s cool.
Yeah, me and my big bottom self.

You’re the bottom?
Totally, always have been.

A power-bottom perhaps?
I don’t really understand what power-bottom means. Does it mean like I’m a bitch like “Fuck me now.”

Right.
It’s like Melrose Place, Heather Locklear bottom. “Fuck me now bitch or you’re fired.” Power bottom? I don’t know. Not a senior executive but like head of sales.

CFO?
Quasi-power. I’m working my way up. I’m not quite like Martha Stewart. But people always think I’m the top. It’s really funny.

I think because you’re tall and big. I figured you were the top.

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And the next day, I came across a picture of Reichen Lehmkuhl, the winner of the celebrated reality show Amazing Race in one of the most anticipated seasons. Boy, this hunk was actually pretty hot, big and buffed from all the hard works he showed upon graduating the Air Force Academy. I then immediately hopped on YM to chat with my brondong jenius.

How come I haven’t heard that Lance Bass of N’Sync is dating a very hot guy named Reichen Lehmkul?
They broke up already darling. He was with his “spouse” when he was doing the Amazing Race stunts. I heard that he has a habit of cheating.

Dohh, with that bod? Of course I would’ve also worn a habit of cheating. Oh, what would I have to pay to get in his pants yah?
Oh shucks, you didn’t know? Legend says that Reichen was bot, and Lance was actually the top dude.

OMG, do you have to like ruin my fantasy that I am having right now? But anyway he looked so goddarn massive, strong and capable of sweeping me of ma-feet.
That’s what we call a power-bottom darl.

Gosh, I came upon that term twice already in two consecutive days. What does it mean anyway?

Then my brondong jenius gave me an entry from the urban dictionary:

power bottom

Gay Male Term. Dominant Bottom. While a bottom is usually submissive to his partner, a power bottom enjoys maintaining control over the top and/or the penetration, the normally dominant role in gay male sex. Power bottoms supposedly have skilled tongues. (They give the best blow jobs/fellatio and rim jobs/analingus.)

Suddenly they all make sense for me. No longer I have to be confused on my own sub-genre. It’s not a fetish. It’s not a lifestyle choice. It’s just a state of being. I enjoy doing my army-look, I am not comfortable showing signs of effeminacy in public. And yes, just like Princess Morbucks and her overprotective daddy, I enjoy my man raw and strong. Damn, I now felt like I belong somewhere.

Go Go Power-bottoms!