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Like a midnite attack, slowly yet calculated, they managed to suck you into their vortexes. When you are snuggling comfortably in their traps, they will then inform you subtly, “Actually, do you mind if I am still in a relationship with another person?” And before you could utter a single word, they would continue, “Oh it’s a rocky one, I’ve had it with him since forever and I think I am going to drop him very soon.” Alas, these types. With questionable motives, they want you around. And the ultimate draw was the fact that they never leave the other person. Ever.

I've never planned to be a home wrecker in my life. Until I was faced with limited options in encountering such behaviors: Shall I let him go (in which he was already dear to my heart) or shall I pretend that I am okay with all of these (in which I am so not ok of course)? Once I made that choice nearing the end of last year, I asked him to leave the other person and submitted to my request he did. The relationship didn’t go very well, because I knew from the beginning: The wants factors had won over the needs of my fragile heart and mind.

Another encounter of the same types not too long ago, but at least this person just wanted to have sex without wining and dining me. Of course he had to leave me with the phrase, “Look I am not promising anything, I am still in a relationship” Like, duh, why didn’t you tell me this previously and as iffff, whoeva was hoping for anything anyway! Well, maybe my face gave it out. I might act like I just need him for the (great) sex. But my face, he might’ve seen the longings that I had for him. To be closer to him.

Darn, I am such a sucker for romance.

And now this. Mojo Jojo, how dare you tell me right upfront that you are still wondering about the sexuality your newfound –cute- friend? All that when you are still unclear of what do you want to do with your current –rocky- one? With how many person(s) do I have to compete to win your heart siy? Very bad, bad, monkey. Suddenly it hit me. Oh yes, you are a catch and I think you know it well. But are you still worthy of catching my time, my attention and my affection?

Oh God, what have I done in the past to deserve all these bastards? They came in various shapes and sizes, usually in some very nice packaging. So, are you my dear, another bastard?

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